April 26, 2005
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10:23 PM
de hamsters mated. we had to make a choice. either de guy or de 2 gals. not both sexes. i doted on de guy alot and cldnt bear to part wif him. but my pa doted on de gals. it's better to keep 2 hamsters den 1 so tt dey wun be lonely. it was a v painful decision but we had no choice but to keep de gals instead. dere wasnt time for me to prepare myself mentally. i burst into tears when i looked into his eyes for de last time. i stroked him lightly and i tot i saw tears in his eyes too. he stared back at me. i am sure he can feel my emotions. my tears cldnt stop falling when my parents left de hse wif de guy in their hands. we onli spent 3.5 wks togeda. but de heartache i felt was real. very real
maybe cos i haf been talking to him alot for de past wks. i tell him everything tt happened to me. i treated him as a human being. and i tot even if no one listened to me. he will always be dere. i am so wrong. he is not going to be here anymore. ever
