February 17, 2006
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9:43 AM
sighs. babyy has left for his situational test. not gonna hear frm him for 3 days again. to tink i was looking fwd to dis mth's anni cos it falls on a sat. and of ALL wkends it just has to be DIS one tt he cant book-out. double sighs. so i'm gonna be alone on our anni. triple sighs.
and my pri sch fren is in same platoon as him. how small can tekong get. hahah. babyy was showing my photo to de ppl in de platoon and my fren was like... "eh? mindy arh?" i tot tt was reali farnie.
since i got my paychecks i've been spending quite alot. seems like more cash generates higher wants. so dere's not much diff compared to not working and having lil wants.
results out in 2 wks' time. hope i qualify for jialong's cartel treat. but reali not much confidence. ughh.
these days i've been having bad dreams and not able to slp well. got dis reali bad feeling. i'll relate wad i can rem.
1st bad dream:
in a convenience store. a bangla stole sth and caught by de shop owner. he beat him to death by crashing sth v hard on his head repeatedly. he bled profusely and died. i was a witness but i din wan to be. so i ran away and somehow de bangla frens standing outside knew wad happened even though dey are not in de store. de whole grp chased after me cos dey wan me to gif statements for de murder. so de rest of de dream was just plain running and escaping for me. when i woke up my body was aching mans!
2nd bad dream:
i dreamt of dis last nite. i walked into a room and saw an NS guy wearing #4 (de whole green attire) lying face-down on de floor. and 2 other NS guys were taking pictures of him wif digi cams like he's an ornament. i walked closer to de guy lying down and was shocked to see dere's a dagger stabbed from his back. (ahaha backstabbed) and a lil blood stained de uniform. i was like "huhh why are u taking pics and not calling for help?" and de 2 guys said v plainly "huh but confirm die already wad. call a lil bit ltr oso nvm. take pics 1st la. not every day u see such things u noe." shrugs. dey said it v coolly and w/o emotions.
darn must be online too many hrs these days and it's affecting de quality of my slp. no worries. starting work next wk.
