chatted with my Lao Pa for almost 2 hours over some events that happened more than a decade ago, like how unfilial my uncles/aunties were when my Grandpa knew his days were numbered and kept pleading to be brought out of the hospital. they ignored his request when they had the ability & an extra room at home to accomodate him.

the next day Grandpa managed to be transferred out of the hospital, but wasnt going to any of his sons' place but to a hospice instead. he passed away about 4 hours after reaching the hospice that same day.

my heart ached when i heard how they treated Grandpa in his final moments. he doted on me most and we were really close. i knew what he wanted without him saying a word, be it his 老花眼镜 or the newspapers.

even now as im typing, i cant help but cry cos i miss him loads even though it's been a long 13 years. i miss his scent because he used a unique soap brand which probably cant be found anywhere now.

anyway, for the past decade many unfortunate events happened to those bastards/bitches uncles/aunties. to be precise, their children who were my cousins. one passed away from cancer in her early thirties, another cousin had acute depression and almost died from suicide.

im not entirely surprised about these happening. in fact, im waiting to see what else is in store for them. i dont feel anything because i think they dont even deserve any respect as humans. just felt that my cousins are pitiful because they are the innocent parties but had to pay for their parents' doings.

some people may think these are plain coincidences or im being superstitious. but nope i deeply believe they are related to some extent.

有因就有果。